We made it to Philadelphia yesterday (Sat) and Axel will be having surgery tomorrow. I just don't know what to think. I love this boy so much and I really don't want him to be in any pain. I know the doctors and staff will take wonderful care of him but I just don't like the thought of him going to surgery.

I have had a nice long talk with Axel and I have told him that we are only doing this so he can live a nice long happy life without having to worry about any neck or spine problems. I only wish he understood what I was saying.

This little boy has entered my heart since the first time I saw him, and the moment we first met I knew he was perfect for us.In fact, he is sitting on my lap as I write this, Axel will look at me and say "I love you" then give me a kiss on my cheek. How wonderful is that. And think he has only been with us for 6 months.  He has fit in soooo well.

What I guess I'm asking for is prayers, my emotions are going everywhere. I know God will watch over Axel and he will soothe my heart.